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In my middle years of schooling I became the focus of a rather odd individual who happen to be my physical education instructor. Paddling was used as a method of punishment and typically administered while the recipient wore his traditional "jock strap" of the 1970's.

One of infarctions warrenting punishment was avoiding the shower after gym class. If cought, the offender was made to return to the shower and remain under the spray of water until all had finished. He then was made to return to his locker were he would step back into his "atheletic supporter". I believe this was done as the instructor could then say the youth was not "stripped" of clothing.
With bottom beared and in clear view of all, Ibent over the bench and holding tightly. The instuctions were to count aloud as the heavy wooden paddle was applied. I myself did not lose control and cry but there were those who did....crying and wailing almost incontrollably as they received 6 to 10 strong and deliberate strokes with that large wooden paddle.

I thought at that time that the humiliation was even more severe than the pain in that the class always laughed loudly as the paddlle induced cries and apologies.

As an adult, I know this effected my sexuality. Although my wife does not find it arrousing, she finds that I am quick to obey vs receiving the paddle. I also find it arousing to whitness a man or a woman being punished by the paddle as others observe.

I have studied and discussed this with phychologists. Most agree that when one experiences humiliation in conjunction with painful punishment. One associates the sensations and thoughts as stongly provocative sexual stimuli.

I so remember one incident that will never leave my mind. The image of one young man brought to the front of the gym floor and made to bend and grab ankle. How loudly the girls laughed as he was paddled. Please stop, oh please, I can't stand it! only brought on the punishment that much harder. Obviously the young man's shorts were not dropped. There was nothing indecent or sexual about it. I remember the gym teacher very clearly. I believe he used all of his force for the final 4 cracks. I also did hear him say to the student.." I can see that you like this paddle" don't you...and then the crack...and the question and the crack..It was then I noticed what the teacher had seen. The boy was very erect. The young man was then made to stand, legs spread widely and hands clasped behind his head. His manhood straight in front of him as the class laughed. One would be foolish to think this situation would not evoke a fetish within him

I am sure the young man's sexuality was being altered or developed as his punishment aroused him and this was pointed out! .

I will also comment that the paddle was used about once weekly. It was feared greatly and that fear caused much anxiety and tension.

In closing I do not think that there is any way a student or child who regularly experiences punishment can differentiate the feeling of sexual excitement or fear.

I also feel that punishmetn (such as paddling) alternated with agressive intercourse will serve to develope or unleash the urges from within an individual. My wife is case in point. Even the most hard of her punishments are immediately hollowed by intense lovemaking.

I have never revealed this until now. I sincerely hope it did not bore the readers.