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I found out last week. Was married 18 years....been divorced for a few years....my only partner for the last 20 years was my x-husband. I never thought this could happen to me because I was married. The only reason I found out is because the dr asked me during a physical if I wanted to have the test and I said, "Sure, it's going to come back negative." I wish I had said no. She blew my mind. Right now, I am asking myself could I have had it all these years from a previous partner and didn't know? Did my x step out on me and bring this home?

I've been seeing this guy for the last few years since my divorce and have not had had sex, because I want to wait until we married (old school). He tells me he is in love with me all the time and I think he's going to want to get married.

This is going to break his heart and may destroy our future.

The only reason why I haven't taken my life is because I have children that need me.

I am trying to be strong, but I am devestated. I pray they find a cure.